Was reading a quote that said “Stop focusing on how stressed you are and remember how blessed you are. It could be so much worse. And you have so much to be grateful for.” The first thing that popped into my head was Gizmo. I’m not sure why I did, but for some reason that had a very calming effect on me. Thanks Giz.
I hate admitting this, but I needed to vent, I hate conceding that it even bothers me but fuck it.
Just saw a poster for a short film by the last d-bag I dated pop up in my newsfeed and immediately felt nauseous and wanted to kick him in the neck. I’m not saying that everyone in the world has to hate him the way I do because I know he only lied to me and ripped my heart out. But Jesus fucking Christ, please stop reminding me that he exists. I swear to fuck I forget he exists until I’m forced to remember him.
And how many of my friends follow him on tumblr and I have to see those reblogs…
And when I click to see responses to friends tweets and there he is. Can I fucking escape the fact that he exists?
It’s only supposed to go one way. He’s supposed to see all I’m doing and remember what a cad he is, I don’t need to be reminded of him and how he lied to me and in the end used me and still benefits from the connections he got from me.
I want to be able to kick this for once and all, but then something like this happens and I remember it all and it’s like a fucking ocean of hate.
"There’s a part in all of us that’s scared and not sure. And when you get the ability to see that in yourself, you start to see that everyone is fighting everyday."
My friend Tom Bryce won Halloween this year. Tina, I can smell your brrrrrraaaaaaiiiinnnnnnsssss! #rotld #returnofthelivingdead #horror #thommathews #danobannon #williamstout #zombie
This scene from Morvern Callar is one of the most beautiful horror movies in an indie drama. Spoiler alert: Her bf kills himself and leaves a novel manuscript he wants her to submit to publishers. She changes the name so it looks like she wrote it and dismembers and buries his body to make it seem as though he just left her. The film is fascinating in the sense that Morvern makes a slew of choices most of is would never consider. It’s left open ended as to what their relationship was like, and maybe there had been turmoil that pushed her to doing this. Absolutely a fascinating watch! #samanthamorton #morverncallar